Blind But Not Stupid

i may be blind.
but i'm not stupid.
i sure can see what's happening.
i even can see thru the details.
and i know everything is going wrong,
but somehow,
it made me happy,
it made him happy.

we both agreed to it.
we can clap to it.
u can't clap with one hand only right!?

Stop Playing Pretend

How can i tell you how i like you.
Until when can i play pretend?
Am i hopeless?
There are signs of hope,
yet there are more insecurities all over me.

Why I Like Guys

why i like guys.

• the way they smell.
• when they dress nicely for something important, it’s lovely.
• that they’re taller than me.
• i can wear their clothes.
• their jackets are always warmer.
• the way i fit in their arms.
• feeling safe.
• how my small hands fit in their big hands.
• how their arm fits right around my shoulders.
• how they look right after showers.
• abs.
• the V they sometimes have.
• their smile, eyes, lips.
• the way their lips feel against mine.

Half The World Is Sleeping

Tiny Revelation

TEN things about myself:

• I’m not scared of all sharp objects. razors, scissors, needles.
• Im good at holding them without cutting myself
  
• Plan on getting huge tattoo on my back
  
• I trip on falt surfaces
  
• I could drink 3 bottles of Redhorse 1L without passing out.
• I'm a rough bike rider.
  
• I know lyrics to songs i’ve never even heard before.
• If I actually tried to go to work, I could be the employee of the month
  
• When I was little, i go close to Mascots and trip with them..
  
• I could sleep all day & stay up all night if I wanted.

SEVEN ways to win my heart:

• Bad Guy Image
  
• Can play guitar and sings to me even he suck at singing
  
• Can be serious & hold a serious conversation for longer than 10 minutes.
• Who knows exactly about life.
• Never Yells.
  
• Cooks for me.
• Knows how to value his money.
  

SEVEN things that crosses my mind a lot:

• “Why am I here?”
• “I'm so fucked up”
• “Why won’t my brother stay put for just one second?”
• “I can’t wait to go to work.”
• “Life is funny.”
• “I can't live like that.”
• “I’m not built that way”

FOUR things you do before you fall asleep:

• Talk to people on MSN.
• Hot Shower.
• Pray.
• Last glance on my phone if anyone might have "goodnight" me..

FOUR things you see right now:

• Charging hp.
• tiny lappy.
• huge bed.
• clock on the window grills.weirdo

THREE songs that you listen to often:

• Breathe - Taylor Swift ft. Colbie Callait
• Yu Ai - Rainie Yang
  
• Do you remember - Jay Sean
  

TWO things you want to do before you die:

• build something that people won't forget it forever
  
• do something i love.

ONE confession:

• I think he fucked me up, or pushed me over the edge. Because ever since he left me, i’ve changed completely. & it’s a whole, love-hate thing. I miss the old me, but i love the new me.

photo by tumblr's TAKE A PHOTO

What You Took From Me

here's something new from me again.
enjoy :D

Past Don't Count

i don't give a shit.
coz i was shit myself.

Scared of What You'll Say

I don't know but
I think i maybe
Fallin' for you
Dropping so quickly
Maybe i should
Keep this to myself
Waiting 'til i
Know you better
I am trying
Not to tell you
But i want to
I'm scared of what you'll say
So i'm hiding what i'm feeling
But i'm tired of
Holding this inside my head
I've been spending all my time
Just thinking about ya
I don't know where to
I think i'm fallin' for you
As i'm standing here
And you hold my hand
Pull me towards you
And we start to dance
All around us
I see nobody
Here in silence
It's just you and me
I'm trying
Not to tell you
But i want to
I'm scared of what you'll say

Say Things That Make You Happy, I'm Not Stopping

photo : deviantart
quote: by me ofcourse
photoshop: me too xD

It's Not Meant To Be Yours Coz Yours Is Better

original photography and photoshop edit.
original line.

If Ever You Are Going To Fall Inlove With Me

If you are going to fall in love with me, it’s only fair that you know what you are falling in love with.

You are falling in love with my insecurities, and my obsession with trying to figure out what everyone thinks of me. You are falling in love with my immaturity, my constant need to feel loved and appreciated, my overactive tear ducts, my internet obsession, my tendency to be too clingy. You fall in love with my troubled past, and my hopes and dreams, and how I’m a hopeless romantic at heart. If you fall in love with me, you fall in love with my self-hate and all my imperfections and my perception that nobody could ever love me.

But, you are also falling in love with the way my eyes will smile when I’m with you, the way I’ll text you in the mornings just telling you I hope you have a great day. You’re falling in love with the occasionally humorous and/or thought-provoking things I say, and the way I blush when people ask me about you. But to me, the most important thing will be that you are falling in love with me, despite my thinking that it is impossible.

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My Student Life

Life of an Architecture Student

If you are an architecture student you've probably experienced:


1. the taste of wood glue

2. changes in your vocabulary: homework to project, ball to sphere, etc.

3. you don't understand how somebody can spend less than $20 at the school supplies store

4. you hate people telling you "go to sleep" or "do you still have a lot of work?"

5. your friends and you do7. you can easily discuss with authority the effects of caffeine on different drinks

8. no matter the effort you put in a project, somebody will always say “why don’t you add this? or “why don’t you change this here? or “i think that…but…yeah, its ok?

9. you’ve heard all your ipod songs in a week

10. you aren’t seen in public without bags under your eyes

11. whenever you get invited somewhere, it is followed by “or do you have a lot of homework??

12. you’ll dance ymca with a choreography without a drop of alcohol in your system

13. you write down a quick message with a tech pen, lead holders or markers

14. you constantly make up excuses for courses that are not design related why you didn’t do your work

15. you have more pictures of landscapes and places than of people

16. your worst nightmare consists of not finishing a project

17. someone once called you “lazy? and you wanted them murdered

18. you can live without human contact, sunlight, food, but if your technical pen's ink runs out… chaos!!!

19. when somebody lends you an cheap ordinary pen you look down at it

20. you don’t care about sports cars, your favorite car is the one where you can put in your model and your huge computer

21. you design spectacular things without the idea of the cost

22. you have the modern mark: a blister in your palm’s hand for the constant use of your mouse

23. everybody tells you how they admire your work, “but there is no money for it?"LOL

24. you’ve gained the ability to sleep in whatever surface: pencils, keyboards, backpacks, your studio
mates, food, etc

25. you always have the idea that your project will always be recognized

26. when you finally have free time to go out you keep thinking “who was the idiot that designed the restaurant’s bathroom?? “who designed this menu?? or “who designed this [chair, table, lighting, fork, etc]?

27.you've been at many sunrises, yet you've never seen one

28.you need to read all this in my blog to realize how weird your life is....

Walking To Your Smile

not my original photo neither the lines.
but i edit it altogether using PHOTOSHOP CS4
added some colors and lightings.

Don't Neglect The Little Things

not my original photo neither the lines.
but i edit it altogether using PHOTOSHOP CS4
added some colors and lightings.

I'm Having Fun So What?

not my original photo neither the lines.
but i edit it altogether using PHOTOSHOP CS4
added some colors and lightings.

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