I Will Miss You Like Crazy

No.
Let's not be open to each other.Please.
Coz I don't wanna know anything
and I don't want you to know anything from me too.
Coz I know it would be very hard.
I'm scared of what I might hear from you.
Coz I don't want to miss you
when I go back to my country.
Our memories I would never forget,
you inspired me I'm sad I can't stay any longer.

I would never forget you.
And if you allow it,
I'll come back and see you again :(

How Do I Be Careful

original photography and photoshop edit.
lines from the song replay english version from youtube.

Say It Again

original photography and photoshop edit.
true conversation.

The Way You Say It

original photography and photoshop edit.
true conversation.

Done Deal

original photography and photoshop edit.
true conversation.

Who's Nice Then?

original photography and photoshop edit.
true conversation.

Whiskey and Beer

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02/27/10 10:00 P.M.

original photography and photoshop edit.
original lines.

Mahal Lang Kita Ngayon

if somebody is taking advantage
of your feelings then tell him this:

Mahal lang kita ngayon,
hintay ka lang.

MATATAUHAN DIN AKO!!!

My Actions Betrayed Me

So it pays off when you just let things be.
Don’t go and force yourself into something you’ll regret later,
‘cause one thing’s for sure, the only person you lose in this battle is yourself.

Man Of My Dreams

There's this guy
I can't get out of my head.

Speak Demon Speak

Imma gonna make the demon speak >:]

Spilled Water

i like you so much to the point where i want to cry.

yeah this kinda funnayy but hahaha
what the hell?!!

Prison Break

i remember when i was so broken hearted
and so down back then,
i talked to you as a good friend of mine,
i remember you told me this
"that's life my frd, that's why i told myself
i won't give my heart to anyone anymore".
Remember this conversation?
well,how about, you took my heart away? :(
sob sob and you didn't even know you took it.
you are such a psycho criminal.

this happening is so so so...
i can't eat any of this.
the person who advised you to not give your heart
to anyone anymore coz that's what he did...
is exactly the same person who you gave your heart to.
And you just want to die coz all you can do
is see the very sad truth everyday
and you can't do anything about it
or even tell him how you feel
coz in the first place
during the conversation..
you agreed to him.
you agreed not to give your heart
to anyone anymore! :(
THIS IS VERY SAD.
I am very SAD.
And I'm caught up in prison by you
and you just can never bail me out :(

Maybe, Just Maybe

Beep, beep on
Now there goes my phone
And once again
I'm just hoping it's a text from you
It ain't right
Read your messages twice, thrice, four times a night it's true
Everyday I patiently wait
Feeling like a fool but I do anyway
Nothing can feel as sweet and as real
Coz no way I would've waited in vain

And maybe it's true I'm caught up on you
Maybe there's a chance you're stuck on me too
Maybe I'm wrong it's all in my head
Maybe we're afraid of words we both hadn't said

I'm always connected online
Turn facebook all the time
Hoping you've checked my profile
Just can't help wondering why you play it cool
But sometimes I'm hopelessly falling for you
Every night on the phone and I
In love with you and I know that you like it boy
All joking inside lets see you and I
Come out and say what you're trying to hide

Like I really want you
I think I need you
Maybe I miss you
I'm thinking of you

Body Language

i hate trying to put my desire into words. when my body knows exactly what to say.

I Stole To Touch

i steal your lighter just so you’ll stick your hand in my pocket.

Drink Up For Me

so, did you have your last drink?
did you raise it up to me, just to spite me not being there with you?

We Are The Way We Are

we’ll never be alone so long as we have each other.
we can create our own happiness.
hangout so we are two less lonely people in this world.
don't worry,
i wouldn't ask for more.
I'm happy just the way we are :D

"Happiness" I Wish For You

you’re always on your way to somewhere new.
instead of leaving, stay here with me. please?

but then..

i want you to be happy though.
every part of the world every drop of your dreams
are my wishes for you.
wherever you may be,
please be happy
for life is short and i won't make it more shorter for you
if i'm going to be selfish and wish for you to stay..

so go and enjoy :D

I'm happy for you
for you have lived your life.

The Hangover

i can still feel your kisses on the back of my neck.

The Agreement

I figure you can bite one person...
without it becoming your "thing".

Who-Can-Pretend-The-Most Marathons

If you can pretend as hard as I'm pretending,
this can be the first time we've ever met. Not the last.

You and I could even run who-can-pretend-the-most marathons.
Because we're that complicated.

but..

If by pretending can keep us meeting each other, then why not?

Respect Atleast This

Respect, something you know nothing about!

You're Unhappy And You Know It

You think by making others feel isolated or alone, that you'll feel less alone.
Guess again.
I can tell you're unhappy.
You act like you have direction in life
but all you really have is an empty dream and a lackluster "plan" on how to get there.

You tear others down every chance you get.
You mock people with faith in God,
because who would believe in something like that?

And do you know the scary part?
NO ONE EVEN NOTICES WHAT YOU'RE DOING.
But I do.
Maybe that's why you can't stand me. I'd be okay with that.

But what I can't deal with is the way you pretend to be my friend.
GROW UP.
Just because you hate your life
doesn't give you the right to make me think I should hate mine.

One of these days you're going to look up and no one will be there.
And you'll deserve it.

Not Nice Of You

Sometimes I can't work out if you're a friend who wants to talk to me or an enemy who wants to take from me.
Sometimes, I have this feeling that you're neither or both;
that you play the field as to what suits you best at the moment.
You're so hypocritical. You're so immature.
You're caught up in a fantasy land where you didn't mess up.
I don't agree with your choices.
I don't agree with your relationships. I don't agree with you.
But not agreeing does not mean judgment, more like indifference toward you.
Stop playing pretend. It's time to grow up!

...and sometimes you only find out once you've made quite a personal investment...
I guess we have to keep trying.

Alarm Clock

I never slept that well next to you. But at least I slept.

....
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I never slept well next to him,
but I'd give up almost anything just to experience
one more of those sleepless nights again.
Resting my head on his chest & listening to his heart beat all night
was worth more than any amount of sleep to me.
well he doesn't know this.
He thought I've fallen asleep very well.

Tignan Mo Lang

HAHA!!
ang tanga-tange ko!
tanga tanga talaga!
NAKAKAINIS.
bakit ba palagi nalang akong nasasaktan?
ako ba ang tanga o sila ang nang gagago?
grrrr..
hindi ko naman ginustong mahulog ang loob ko sayo ah...
di ko naman alam na normal lang pala ang "Dating" nang walang relasyon
dito sa lugar niyo!
At peste ka hinayaan mo lang akong
mahulog sayo.
kung may awa ka sakin sana nuon pa
nilayo-an mo nalang ako!
walang hya ka talaga.
ngayon,,,sa araw2x na pagdadaanan ko,
pilit kong babawiin ang pira piraso ng sarili ko
na nakuha mo!
shet.

akala ko ikaw na eh.
sabi kasi nang manghuhula ikaw na.
well,sino ang tanga.
ok tanga na kung tanga,
lesson learned nalang.
oo,
lesson learned
nanaman.
parati nalang akong
bigo sa ganito.
sa'n kaya ako nagkulang?!
naging totoo naman ako ah.
haii kung alam ko lang sa simula pa
kung ano ang tipo mong seryosohin
at kung alam ko lang na d ako yon,
haha siguradong lumayo na ako sayo noon pa!

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[pardon lang sa lahat nang readers,
nag tatagalog ako kasi ang taong tinutukoy ko
ay hindi nakakaintindi nang tagalog
at ayoko siyang mka intindi.

P.S.
sarap pala pakinggan ang tagalog ano?LOL]

Open Coke Open Happiness

ang saya saya ko ngayon :D
alam mo kung bakit?
kasi nag-reply ka :D
alam mo namang
yan lang ang happiness ko sa ngayon...
hehe

at sinabi mo pang na miss ba kita..
oo naman,
itatanong pa ba yun?
LOL
sana lang nakakaintindi ka ng tagalog noh?
hehe :P

Ang Sama Sama Mo

alam mo ba?
habang tumatagal na tayo'y magkasama
mas lalo akong nasasaktan.
alam mo ba kung bakit?
dahil nakakainis ka!
ang sarap2x mong kasama
at ang tanga-tanga ko naman
klarong klaro naman na ginagawa mo lang lahat to
dahil alam mo yon ang nagpapahina sakin!
pero bakit?hindi ka ba naaawa sakin?!
sa tuwing niyakap kita,totoo yon,
pero sa tuwing niyayakap moko
alam ko,hindi ako bobo...gusto mo lang nang ganun.
ba't ang manhid2x mo?
ba't pinapahirapan mo pa ako?
alam mo naman hindi ko kayang lumayo sayo,
at heto ka naman patuloy sa pagpapasweet
kahit wala naman intensyong mahalin ako!
ang sama sama mo!

sana lang sa huli sasabihin mo sakin "yun din ang nararamdaman ko, oo mahal na din kita, noon pa...''

hahahahahaha
nakakatawa noh?
ang sarap mangarap!

:(

ginagawa ko nang lahat para
hindi mahuhulog loob ko sayo
pero lalo lang
akong nahuhulog.
plss naman..
saluin mo naman ako?

Ba't Ganun?

hay alam mo ba yong,
may gusto kang sabihin pero hindi mo masabi
dahil pag sinabi mo siguradong pagtatawanan ka lang niya
pero punyeta naman kung kasama mo siya
napaka sweet niya..
at kung makapag titig parang napaka mahalaga ka sa kaniya
pero di pala!!
susubuan ka, pakakainin ka,
ihahatid ka sa inyo, hahalikan yung mga kamay mo.
ano ba?ginagago mo ba ako?
gusto ko nang sabihin sayo na nahuhulog na ako! :(
alam ko naman na hindi pareha yong nararamdaman natin eh.
gusto ko lang naman malaman mo
na sa tuwing sweet ka nasasaktan mo ako
kasi lahat ng ginagawa mo binibigyan ko ng halaga
sapagkat ginagawa mo lang yon dahil gusto mo lang :(

Do I?

I DON'T NEED YOU.
arrgghhhh...

i dunno..

LOL

:O

No Reap To Sow

It's just really hard when you like someone so much but he doesn't think of you that way.

What better move should you do next?

Well the fact is
you can't stop yourself from liking someone
when it already does.
Maybe gradually it will
but it's not easy,
coz the more you're ignoring someone you like
the more you'll miss him
and want him more.

Trust me..
I'm in the stage of
struggling :O

What Happened To Before And Now

I was always online at MSN.
But now I can't stat myself as online anymore.
I now keep myself "Appear Offline"
Wonder why?
'Coz every time I go online
and you're online as well,
it breaks my heart when you are not chatting with me.
I hate it when i keep on waiting
when you're goin' to chat with me.
I hate disappointments.
So better yet I'll hide myself from you,
than expose it and just to find out
you don't even care at all.

I remember before we can talk for hours online
tease each other
and LOL alot
but now it feels soooo
awkward.
What happened?

Seriously Fooling Around

Not because he looks so serious in everything he said doesn't mean he means it.
That's why there's a concept on fooling someone.
You are being fooled by sweet talks
and actions,
actions that there aint no meaning at all.
Just plain fuckin actions for them to feed their selves
enjoyment.
They really have the effort to make you believe in something
that isn't true or real at all.
And what hurts the most
is these act of foolishness
are well acted/or being shown
seriously
that you will really fall for it
whether you like it or not.
That's how complicated people are.

That's how harsh reality is.

The Worst Deception

The worst deception;
A guy can make you think he loves you,
but he really doesn't.
And a girl can make you think she doesn't love you,
when she really does.

Get Out Of My Head

You know the feeling

when everyday you see and turn your head on handsome/pretty guys/girls

around passing by and everywhere...

and admire a lot of good looking people the whole day you're out

at mall,or sidewalk or park..

then at the end of the day

as you lay in bed

and closed your eyes

and that person you're trying to forget appears!!!

and all those good looking people you've met

the entire day was gone like it doesn't even matter after all..

And it feels like shit

coz you never wanted to close your eyes

and just see that person that you're trying to forget!

well every night i experience this,

and it's not easy sleeping like this..

every night...

Return It Now

People have the freedom to love,

to choose who we give our hearts to.

But what's the use of this freedom

if the person you love also

has the freedom to love somebody else?

Everyday i struggle

getting my heart back from you.

And what really hurts

is you won't give it back to me

but you also never

took care of it.

I hope you realize that it's not nice already,

if you want to play,

not with my heart.

Good thing 'my heart is brave,

it never cries.

But please it's not yours

and not yours to keep.

I know it belongs to somebody else,

somebody true that he will have the pair of heart

that will take good care of mine.

So please let's not fool around.

Return it now.

I Would Never Think You'd Care

you know why I never share to you my problems.

you know why i never show to you how really depressed and down I am at the moment.
you know why?

Coz later on,maybe I'll get more depressed when I see you won't care at all

once I told you everything that is sad about me.

When Someone Invisible Exists

hey there.
I'm happy today.
sky was glimmering yellow when i look at them,
trees were dancing with joy,
every smile is because of you. :P

At least I'm happy.
Even if the reason is invisible,
or shall i say..
doesn't exist :D

after all,
I'M HAPPY :D

I Outta Be Alone

You see I've been preparing myself for this,
to be single forever
well as much as possible,
and to face the world alone.
To be single but happy.
All these is what I aim now
and what I am now in the process...

then you came in.
And what happened?
You keep running in my mind.
yes you may have been runnin' here
but that doesn't mean i care & clarify to myself WHY?!
i NEVER cared to confront to myself about all these
and that,
about YOU-IN my mind.

Well dude
I'm wiser now,
i kiss but won't bring it to my heart,
i may listen but won't believe.
and yeah maybe i just miss you
but i would never cling to it and do anything
about it.
Just let myself miss you lah and
get used to it
until it'll all become normal
or maybe soon
it'll all be meaningless. :)

hmmm..
well i need to see as often as i can
so i won't miss you.
either way,
i still do my best not to fall inlove again!

but you know what,
if i could love again
I'd wish for you :)
but it won't happen though,
coz i won't love again and
will never wish too.

and yeaah i also won't be enough for you i know.

That's The Way Boys Are

BEST COAST - THAT’S THE WAY BOYS ARE

When I’m with my guy and he watches the pretty girls go by
Well it hurts so bad deep inside I wish that I could die
Not a word do I say
I just look the other way
Cos that’s the way boys are

When he treats me rough and he acts as though he doesn’t care
Well I never tell him that he is being so unfair
Plus he loves me and i know it
He is just afraid to show it
That’s the way boys are

Oh when he wants to be alone I just let him be
Cos I know that soon enough he’ll come back to me
When we have a fight and I don’t think that I’d see him anymore
But before i know it there he is standing at my door
Well I let him kiss me then
Cos I know he wants me back

That’s the way boys are

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Don't Come To Me

LOVE - don’t come to me.. not anymore. I don’t believe in you, not anymore ;)

One More Chance

Basha: I’m sorry… I’m sorry…

Popoy: No… I am sorry… I’m sorry for not saying sorry before nung nasaktan kita. Nun kasing magkahiwalay tayo, ang inisip ko… sarili ko lang… yung nararamdaman ko lang… yung gusto ko lang. I’m sorry Bash naging madamot ako. Hindi ko inintindi na kailangan mo ring hanapin yung Bashang nawala nung minahal mo ko.
ENG SUB:
(I'm sorry for not saying sorry before when i hurt you. Coz that time that we broke up,all I think is just myself..and what i felt..and thinking about just what i wanted to happen. I've been selfish. I never understand you that you also need to find the old Basha that's been gone when u were with me when you loved me.)

Basha: Yung Bashang mahal ka pa rin…
ENG SUB:
(The basha that still loves you..)

Popoy: Hindi mo alam kung gano ko kagustong sabihin sayo na… sana tayo na lang… sana tayo na lang ulit… Pero sa tuwing mararamdaman ko kung gano kita kamahal, hindi ko maiwasang maramdaman ulit lahat ng sakit. And I’m sorry…
ENG SUB:
(you don't know how much i wanted to tell you that...wish it will be us..wish it'll be us again.. but everytime i thought about how much i love you, i can't ignore to feel again all the pain..And I'm sorry...)

Basha: Anong dapat kong gawin?
ENG SUB:
(what should i do?)

Popoy: Ako na to e, Bash. Ako naman ang may kailangan ng panahon ngayon. Para makalimutan ko na lahat ng sakit. Para maalala ko ang lahat ng maganda at mabuti satin. Para bumalik yung Popoy na nawala nung nagkahiwalay tayo. I want my heart to stop breaking, Bash… para pag naging tayo ulit, kaya na kitang mahalin nang buong-buo… nang walang halong takot kung masaktan man tayong muli.
ENG SUB:
(well,this is me Bash. Now I'm the one who needs space and time to forget all the pain. so that i can remember all the good and bad things about us. so i can bring back the old Popoy that's been gone when we broke up. I want my heart to stop breaking,Bash...so that when it'll us again, I'm ready to love you again with all my heart..with no fear of getting hurt again..)

Wise Girl

HAHA
sounds familiar eh?

I may never wanted to be like this
but duhhh..
of course i love myself more
than any other harmful creature in this world ;)

My Bad Habbit

YOU are such my bad habbit,
my guilty pleasure muacs ;)

i just like the way we are
no more no less :)

If it's alright with you,
then it's alright with me.

Let's make another memory again pls^.^

We Don't Like The Ones Who Likes Us

I'm really pissed.
you know the feeling when ur obviously
not interested with that person but that person
really pushes himself to you.
And confidently persisted on pursuing you
and thought he will really get what he wants.
That's what just happened to me.
Fuckface! just because he is a top student/achiever/
architectural nerd and all doesn't mean he can get me man!
Doesn't mean he can achieve everything he want!!!
Dammit.. he really annoyed me even dared to ask me if he could hold my hands!!
freak i quickly asked "WHY WOULD YOU HOLD IT. YOU'RE SCARING ME!''
in a sarcastic way LOL
im such a bad girl but of course if i said yes but deep inside I'm spitting
i would be more bad right.

He even tried to hug me and begs to listen to my sad stories,
OMG i just can't wait to go home that time man,
he is just so lucky i still have some respect for him that time!
He isn't the maniac time, he is just too confident of himself.
AND I HATE IT.
Overconfident is a bad thing dude!
i would probably think you're a hopeless loser ;> lol

Well to be fair in his side
i told him this---->
''there is no reason for you to like me,
first,I'm a bad girl and secondly I just had my heart broken
and i don't think having a new relationship would help me to move on.
thirdly, you don't have any idea how much hatred i have for guys now
and how much i just wanna kill em all! So please if you love yourself,
stay away from me. I'm very harmful for you.''

SO? WHAT'CHA THINK?
yeah it's seriously true,
every word that I've said to him.

I hope it's enough for him to stop pursuing his plans on me.
'Coz he ain't gonna change anything that's been set already.
He ain't gonna move a mountain,it's just too impossible!

Ways To Know Your A Filipino

1. You point with your lips
2. You nod upwards to greet someone.
3. You collect items from hotels or restaurants “for souvenir”.
4. You smile for no reason.
5. You flirt by having a foolish grin in your face while raising your eyebrows repeatedly.
6. You go to a department store and try to bargain the prices.
7. You add an unwarranted “H” to your name, i.e. “Jhun,” “Bhoy,” “Rhon.”
8. You put your hands together in front of you as if to make a path and say “excuse, excuse” when you pass in between people or in front of the TV
9. You like everything imported or “state-side.”
10. You Check the labels on clothes to see where it was made before buying.
11. You always offer food to all your visitors.
12. You say “comfort room” instead of “bathroom.”
13. You say “for take out” instead of “to go.”
14. You asked for “Colgate” instead of “toothpaste.”
15. You asked for a “pentel-pen” or a “ball-pen” instead of just “pen.”
16. You order a McDonald’s instead of “hamburger”(pronounced ham-boor-jer)
17. You say “Ha?” instead of “What.”
18. You say “Hoy” to get someone’s attention.
19. You answer when someone yells “Hoy.”
20. You turn around when someone says “Psst!”
21. Your sneeze sounds like “ahh-ching” instead of “ahh-choo.”
22. You prefer to make acronyms for phrases such as “OA” for over acting, or “TNT” for, well, you know.
23. You say “air con” instead of “a/c” or air conditioner.
24. You say “brown-out” instead of “black-out.”
25. You have a portrait of “The Last Supper” hanging in your dining room.
26. You own a Karaoke System.
27. You own a piano that no one ever plays.
28. You own a “barrel man” (you pull up the barrel and you see something that looks familiar. schwing…)
29. You refer to your VCR as a “beytamax
30. You have a giant wooden fork and spoon hanging somewhere in the dining room
31. Your car has too many “burloloys” like a Jipneys back in P.I.
32. You hang a Rosary on your car’s rear view mirror.
33. You order a “soft drink” instead of a “soda.”
34. You refer to seasonings and all other forms of monosodium glutimate as “Ajinomoto”
35. This you ‘ll agree 100% … Goldilocks” means more to you than just a character in a fairytale.

Wherever I May Go

I'm just going to do what i want now,
and let the chips fall where they may.

What I Fear

Grrr...i hate this feeling...
내가 누군가를 위해 더 이상 느끼지 않을 줄 알았어요!
난 더이상 누군가를 그리워하지 않을 줄 알았어요!
Dammit!
왜 이제 와서 우리가 없을 때 함께 서로 너무 찢어진 당신은 실종 계속 기분이 SMS를 안거야?

도대체 왜 내 마음이 그렇게 느끼지?!
넌 내것이되지 않습니다 그리고 난 당신도 아닙니다.

우리가 함께 좋은 시간도 있었고,
내가 그것을 행복하게 삶의 방법입니다 그냥 생각.

그래, 난 행복해, 당신과 함께
but i never want to miss you
내가 지금 어떤 느낌! ! ! this really sucks man.

Come Near But Not Too Close

Whenever you are near,
it's Love that i fear.

The Haunt of Your Absence

if a star fell
each time i thought about you,
then the moon
would truly realize
what loneliness
is really like.