Ayo Technology

Different Style,Different Move.
Damn i like the way you move.

Aayoh,
Im tired of using technology
I need you right infront of me.

....

"Find someone who values you
and doesn't dwell on your
imperfections
or mistakes,
but instead focuses on what
you can offer
to the relationship."

There's No Escape

"If you hear a song that makes you cry and
you don’t want to cry anymore,
you don’t listen to that song anymore.
But you can’t get away from yourself.
You can’t decide not to see yourself anymore.
You can’t decide to turn off the noise in your head."

The Feeling

"And the weirdest thing of all is that it feels so right. I suppose it’s true what they say, you never know it’s right until it is, although I’m really scared of saying that out loud just in case he turns out to be a bastard, but somehow I don’t think he will."

Jane Green, Mr. Maybe

Born For A Reason

There are two great days in a person’s life -
the day we are born and the day we discover why.

What's Inside A Person

"Everybody has a secret world inside of them.
All of the people in the whole world. I mean everybody.
No matter how dull and boring they are on the outside.
Inside them they’ve all got unimaginable,
magnificent, wonderful, stupid worlds.
Not just one world,
hundreds of them, maybe thousands."

It's Destination After All

"I may not have gone where I intended to go,
but I think I have ended up where I needed to be."

Being Single Is

"Being single used to mean that nobody wanted you.
Now it means you’re pretty, sexy,
& you’re taking your time deciding how you want your life to be
& who you want to spend it with."

Sex & the City

The Haunting

Every time you close your eyes, you should be seeing me.

I'm Carrying The Whole World

"Does it break my heart, of course, every moment of every day, into more pieces than my heart was made of, I never thought of myself as quiet, much less silent, I never thought about things at all, everything changed, the distance that wedged itself between me and my happiness wasn’t the world, it wasn’t the bombs and burning buildings, it was me, my thinking, the cancer of never letting go, is ignorance bliss, I don’t know, but it’s so painful to think, and tell me, what did thinking ever do for me, to what great place did thinking ever bring me? I think and think and think, I’ve thought myself out of happiness one million times, but never once into it."

My life is something very sad. If you say life isn't perfect, I totally agree, but mine is too much
not perfect. I've been left alone to live and survive in this crazy and chaotic world. I grew up
with hatred and a with hole in my heart. And no matter how i think how to be happy and forget who i am,i just end up being more sad. Having a boyfriend made me happy at least for a few years but still, it made me more drown into the sea of sadness when the relationship failed. Family and BF I'm a total loser. Good life isn't just meant for me. I've made alot of people laugh but I've never done it for myself. Each morning when i wake up it's so hard for me thinking ''another life to survive with so much pain im holding''. Pain that aren't just any pain. But I'm sorry I am not going to tell my detailed long life story here on my blog. It's just very personal but whatever it is, sure it can make u cry. I'm very strong coz Iv'e been through alot but even so, whenever i think about my life story, I can't help but cry too. My only weakness, the one thing i wanna go back and change things over if I were given the chance.

That's why my only fear in this life is to be loved and left behind by that person. (father,mother,bf,whoever)

That's why today, my relatives can't tell me what to do
evne my parents. Coz they are guilty.
I have a free life.
And i really wanna get away and just get lost.
Buy a ticket and go somewhere
where i can never think back about my sad life again!!!

She Does It

She believed in dreams, alright, but she also believed in doing something about them. When Prince Charming didn’t come along, she went over to the palace and got him.

Know Where You Stand

"The whole problem with the world is that fools and fanatics are always so certain of themselves, but wiser people so full of doubts."

Maybe We're Still Young

"Maybe that’s just growing up.
When you’re young, you tell yourself things like ‘Well, if it didn’t work out,
it wasn’t meant to be’ as if that actually
meant something just because it sounds like it does.
I think you can say something like that
so blithely because you expect to stumble
onto something else just as wonderful just around
the next bend in the road.

But people are rare perfect unique things
and just because everyone really does live a life
full of farewells doesn’t mean you shouldn’t at least
realize what it really means to say goodbye to something
that meant everything.
Just because you WILL survive
and get over it doesn’t mean you should let it go."

Define Your Ownself

"Never be bullied into silence.
Never allow yourself to made a victim.
Accept no one’s definition of your life;
define yourself."

The Unexpected Surprise

Someday, someone is going to walk into your life and make you realize why it never worked out with anyone else.

My Own Appreciation

Not everyone can relate to what
i do appreciate.

Things that i love,
admire,
things that can make me laugh
or smile,
it isn't the usual things,
it isn't just things.
If you could relate to any of what I'm
happy of
then I'm happy for you :)

Inseparable

"I am sad."

"Don't be sad. I'm here for you."

" Ha-ha. It's easier said than done. You ought to know that."

"Well its true, but I'm here for you, am I not?"

"Thank you."

"I said thanks, did you not hear me?"

"I heard you. And I'm sorry I took so long to reply. You see, it's not easy trying to catch up with you (and my breath) when you're making me stand on something that's always pulling us apart."

"Oh. Oh. Sorry."

"It's alright, I'm managing. You and breathing mean the same thing to me, anyway."

"How so? What kind of identical can we possibly be?"

"Without either of you, I'd be dead."

(story of the up & down escalators)

Fair Truth

The bad news is, people are crueler, meaner and more evil than you've ever imagined.

The good news is, people are kinder, gentler and more loving than you've ever dreamed.

The Posthumous Translation

The historians tried to read my story like a book
after I was gone only to fall back disappointed because
I was written in words foreign to them.

I was written in my own mysterious way.
It was a language I spoke to no one else.
And I'll be glad
if you could give it a try.

You may start reading now.

Whispers At The Back

You say the things you don't need to say.

Because it hurts when you don't say them.

And even though it may make me seem like a bad person because I DO say these things,
I don't care. Because they need to be said.

But sometimes I say these things in other ways...
ways that you don't seem to understand or realize.
Or maybe it's just because my words won't matter anymore.
Either way, I'm still saying them...

Keeping The Right People

There's a point in life
when you get tired of chasing
everyone and
trying to fix everything,
but it's not
giving up.
It's realizing
that you don't need
certain people
and their crap.

Sometimes,
the kind of people that we only
need to keep in our lives
are the ones who care.
fcuk the others,
duhhh
who would want to be shitted on?!

THIS IS YOUR LIFE,
BE WHO YOU WANT TO BE
WITH WHO YOU WANT TO BE WITH.

I Need A Break

I need a break
from the LONELINESS
that is totally
consuming me.

:D

I'm planning to feed myself
some enjoyments;
pampering;
amusements;
and
more F.R.I.E.N.D.S.

What You're Missing Out In Life

I think I’m at a point in time where I can only ever miss what I once knew, but I can’t really do anything about it. Sometimes you have to go through a lot to figure out who’s really going to be there for you in the end.

Life is a funny little thing. You should never miss anything that was once there, because nothing is expected in life hence those things were all just suprises. Say hi to your friends everyday. Hug people just that tiny bit longer. Wish upon a star everynight. Find a good heart and stick with it. Right now, you don’t need anyone to complete you. You just need good friends. To those who can’t see that: You’re missing out on life. You’re missing out on the beautiful sky. You’re missing out on the stars at night. You’re missing out on the trees dancing at sunset.

You’re missing out on someone out there who knew just what to do to make you smile.

Strong or Numb

And when the time when you realised that you can’t shed a tear after all those things that you have been through..It is not a sign that you are already strong enough to stand on your own, but you have just lost the ability to feel. You’re numb.

Just numb.

Need Advice?

Need advice? Need to vent? Don’t hesitate to approach me.

Most friends know me as giving straight forward yet completely truthful advice. I don’t beat around the bush and my advice isn’t one big ball of cliches. I try to approach things from a non-biased point of view.

I’m always on and I try to reply to questions to the best of my ability.
If you just need to talk or need to get something off your chest you’ve been holding in, you’re able to let it go.

(comment on any of my post)

Or if you’re sitting there and thinking “I don’t need advice?” Entertain me! Have fun!

Burry Them

"It’s sad when people you know become people you knew; when you can walk right past someone like they were never a big part of your life, how you use to be able to talk for hours and how now you can barely even look at them. It’s sad how times can change."

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well duh,
live on the moment,
sometimes past are better off to be burried.
Everyone deserves a better life ahead.
Trust me,
I'm speaking for the truth.

500 days of Summer

Narrator: This is a boy meets girl story. It is not a love story.

Rachel Hansen: Just because she likes the same
bizzaro crap you do doesn't mean she's your soul mate.

Tom: What happens when you fall in love?

Summer: You believe in that?

Tom: It's love, it's not Santa Claus.

Tom: People don't realize this, but loneliness is underrated.

Summer: I woke up one morning and I just knew.

Tom: Knew what?

Summer: What I was never sure of with you.

Rachel Hansen: Tom, I know you think she was the one,

but I don't. Next time you look back, I think you should look again.

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NICE MOVIE BUT SAD :(

Heartless

And I love nothing.

I love no one.

But i have a guilty pleasure

and I'm not telling you.

(do you believe me?)

Born Bastard

I'm a bastard so what?!
It doesn't make me less my worth
as a person!
Neither worthless.

Im Good

If there's one thing that I'm really good at..

It’s pretending that everything is fine.

Don't Give Up On What You Want

Funny Happenings In My Life

---FUNNY THINGS THAT HAD HAPPENED TO ME---

1. I was stuck into MRT doors.

2. I fell from the stairs going down
with all the students looking at me from the canteen
during my secondary year.
It was raining and slippery.
Then my skirt was flipped.lol.
thanx god i was wearing shorts.

3. I had a grand entrance entering a mall on rush hour,
all the people waiting for a taxi
when i fell off infront of them all
and got my knees bruises.
the funny thing is
i was so conscious walking coz many people
might be lookin' at me LOL
then later i fell on the ground. :(

4. I pass by my house, a very familiar place
i still get lost. OMG

5. I went out from the house
with nice attire but forgot to wear my sandals,
i was still wearing my house slippers,
if it wasn't the maid calling me
and pointing my feet haha
HOW?! lolz




-to be continued-

Invisible In The Eyes

And it takes times to know what it is.
It takes you to dig deeper
to understand what it is about me.

I'm Sick At Early Age(down)

Omg.
i can't help it anymore.
my forgetfulness is freaking me out already.
it became more worse than before.
now i tend to get lost on my way home by
passing by my own house!!
and i know that time i didn't think of anything i swear.
so strange.
and today before when i stepped out of the house
i was wearing sandals,
then ohh suddenly i remember
i forgot to bring something
then i went back in but before i get in
i changed slippers for inside
so i went to room and get the stuff that i forget to bring
then quickly go out and leave
and omg the maid called me from afar
and pointed on my slippers!!!
guess what?
forget to change back my sandals:O
how can it be normal??
DOES IT HAPPENED TO YOU?!
to anyone of you?
=(
i don't really feel good about this and all.
it makes me more less useful to the world!
i still have mission to do.
dreams to fullfill :(

and yes forgetting an entire fresh conversation is not new to me already,
i thought its nothing until i came to find out the
signs and symptoms of ALZHEIMER'S DISEASE.



but why?
I'm still very young.
why do i perfectly get all these symptoms?!!
this is crazy, im an architecture student
i have a dream i need to full use of my left and right brain!!
help me what should i do :(

EARLY ALZHEIMER'S DISEASE
(symptoms)

-Routinely place important items in odd places

-Forget names of family and common objects

-Frequently forget entire conversations

-Can’t follow recipe directions

-Can no longer manage checkbook

-Withdraw from usual interests

-Get lost in familiar places

A Midnight Interview With Me

Ten Favorite Places To Be:
10. carnival
9. arcade
8. streets of a silent subdivision(where i can observe nice houses)
7. rooftop
6. public library
5. grocery store
4. moviehouse
3. coffee shop
2. Seashore
1. Bed.

Five ‘Weird’ Things About You:

5. i cant sleep without an extra pillow and without a blanket even if it isn't cold
4. i sometimes dance a crazy one even without a single drop of alcohol in my system
3. funny/weird incidents always happen to me consistently
2. i pass by my house many times when going home
1. i unconsciously talk to myself(alot!)

Eight New Year Resolutions:
8. Have more adventures.
7. Be more secured.
6. IGNORE jerks!
5. More closer to nature.
4. Get more knowledge about ARCHITECTURE stuffs
3. Be more happy.
2. Have balance. School, work, THE INTERNETZ, familyTIME,(<3life). style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">Love myself more.

Seven Things I’m Thinking Of:
7. how to be happy even without someone's help.
6. my project fee.
5. which company to work.
4. how to be more wiser.
3. how to ignore harmful people in my life.
2. something that i'm not sure about.
1. Tomorrow.

Six Things You’re Wearing Right Now:
6. -
5. -
4. pajamas=Tshirt
3. short+boxers
2. pant+blouse
1. pajamas+Tshirt

Five Things I’m Worried about:
5. my life
4. ignore loneliness
3. getting a license a.s.a.p
2. My future in architectural business
1. My Architectural success

Four Things On My Floor Right Now:
4. tiny pieces of dust
3. pieces of hair
2. slippers
1. rug

Three Things I Want To Do Tomorrow:
3. make someone happy and likewise
2. meet my family
1. wake up with a smile

Two Things I’ll Reveal:
1. i have an early Alzheimer disease =(
2. i have insomnia

One Secret I’ll Share:
1. Well then, it wouldn’t be a secret anymore, would it?

Things Left Unsaid

• This is sad.
• Girl: Your new girlfriend is pretty. (I bet she stole your heart)
• Boy: Yeah, she is. (But you’re still the most beautiful girl I know)
• Girl: I heard she’s funny and amazing. (All the stuff I wasn’t)
• Boy: She sure is. (But she’s nothing compared to you)
• Girl: I bet you know everything about her by now. (Like how you knew just about everything about me)
• Boy: Only the stuff that counts. (I can’t even remember the stuff she tells me when I think of you)
• Girl: Well, I hope you guys last. (Because we never did)
• Boy: I hope we do too. (Whatever happened to me & you?)
• Girl: Well I got to go. (Before I start to cry)
• Boy: Yeah me too. (I hope you don’t cry)
• Girl: Bye. (I still love you)
• Boy: Later. (I never stopped)

Do What You Love to Do

“You know what? Fuck beauty contests.
Life is one fucking beauty contest after another.
You know, school, then college, then work, fuck that.
And fuck the air force academy.
If I wanna fly, I’ll find a way to fly.
You do what you love, and fuck the rest.”

Be Strong Anyway

“Promise yourself to be so strong that nothing
can disturb your peace of mind.
Look at the sunny side of everything
and make your optimism come true.
Think only of the best,
work only for the best and expect only the best.
Forget the mistakes of the past and
press on to the greater achievements of the future.
Give so much time to the improvement of yourself
that you have no time to criticize others.
Live in the faith that the whole world is on your side
as long as you are true
to the best that is in you.”

Get What You Deserve

“I’m selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can’t handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don’t deserve me at my best.”

Someday

''No one is afraid of heights, they are afraid of the fall. No one is afraid to play, they are afraid to lose. No one is afraid of the dark, they are afraid of what’s in it. No one is afraid to say “I love you”, they are afraid of the response.''

Vanilla Twilight

click image for a clear peek

gaddd..
i love this song.
but it has nothing to do with stuffs :P
LOL I SOUND SO DEFENSIVE.
:)) :> ;) :P

It's Sinulog!

For how many days that im gone,
im here once again
to fill some thoughts in my lil blog ;)

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Well,these past few days,
i've been busy rushing for things
and can't think of anything to post.
yeah,
i kept myself busy
so i will think less
about it.
it.
:P

today is saturday night
and im supposed to be partyin at town now
bt im lazy and the weather is not good
so staying at home is a better idea.
i don't really force myself to go out
if i don't feel so.
i respect my body n soul.
LOLS
:P

hmmm oh yeah,
tomorrow
is my city's BIG DAY.
the historical SINULOG celebration.

+ Sinulog Grand Parade
(pay tribute to child jesus)
+ Street Party
+ Concerts
+Fireworks
+Beer Showerrr

hmmm i still dunno
if i can go n party,
every year i wont miss it
until this year I'm not sure about it yet.
my friends been inviting me already..
i don't feel excited for this year's celebration really.
i don't know why either,
bt surely its not connected on my previous
disasters..
lols.

bye bye LOVE

hi.
tonight I'm just gonna
inform you guys that I'm not interested
in giving my heart anymore
i don't know until when but i want it as much as possible.

LOVE-something that i am not looking forward to, anymore.

For the first time i was being hurt by the person i really love and care about,
it wasn't just love that i gave him
i offered my life, sacrificed things.
we were supposed to get married and planned
that one day we will wake up every morning together.
even im not ready to face it i had the will to do it coz i want him
in my life.
But he just took it for granted,
and the reason is i don't know why.
i never betray him and he never did(im not sure).

After all he put me through
i don't know if i'm still supposed to do it again
to anyone and be able to be fooled
or hurt again.
He just din hurt me,
even destroyed me.

i come after him many times,
i never gave up
until he pushed me very very hard away :(

SO.....
BYE LOVE.

The Lunch

uncle dingdong,me,aunt sharon,uncle john

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uncle john,aunt sharon,uncle bem,me

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We went for lunch today at The Fort Manila
in some Italian Restaurant
called "Baducci".
Lunch for a secret celebration XD
it was good but i still not in the mood
to enjoy.
I'm just happy for them but for myself
I'm still a bit confused of what i really feel now.
One thing I'm sure is that
I'm almost over you
and i don't know if it's a good thing
or not = =''