"Does it break my heart, of course, every moment of every day, into more pieces than my heart was made of, I never thought of myself as quiet, much less silent, I never thought about things at all, everything changed, the distance that wedged itself between me and my happiness wasn’t the world, it wasn’t the bombs and burning buildings, it was me, my thinking, the cancer of never letting go, is ignorance bliss, I don’t know, but it’s so painful to think, and tell me, what did thinking ever do for me, to what great place did thinking ever bring me? I think and think and think, I’ve thought myself out of happiness one million times, but never once into it."
My life is something very sad. If you say life isn't perfect, I totally agree, but mine is too much
not perfect. I've been left alone to live and survive in this crazy and chaotic world. I grew up
with hatred and a with hole in my heart. And no matter how i think how to be happy and forget who i am,i just end up being more sad. Having a boyfriend made me happy at least for a few years but still, it made me more drown into the sea of sadness when the relationship failed. Family and BF I'm a total loser. Good life isn't just meant for me. I've made alot of people laugh but I've never done it for myself. Each morning when i wake up it's so hard for me thinking ''another life to survive with so much pain im holding''. Pain that aren't just any pain. But I'm sorry I am not going to tell my detailed long life story here on my blog. It's just very personal but whatever it is, sure it can make u cry. I'm very strong coz Iv'e been through alot but even so, whenever i think about my life story, I can't help but cry too. My only weakness, the one thing i wanna go back and change things over if I were given the chance.
not perfect. I've been left alone to live and survive in this crazy and chaotic world. I grew up
with hatred and a with hole in my heart. And no matter how i think how to be happy and forget who i am,i just end up being more sad. Having a boyfriend made me happy at least for a few years but still, it made me more drown into the sea of sadness when the relationship failed. Family and BF I'm a total loser. Good life isn't just meant for me. I've made alot of people laugh but I've never done it for myself. Each morning when i wake up it's so hard for me thinking ''another life to survive with so much pain im holding''. Pain that aren't just any pain. But I'm sorry I am not going to tell my detailed long life story here on my blog. It's just very personal but whatever it is, sure it can make u cry. I'm very strong coz Iv'e been through alot but even so, whenever i think about my life story, I can't help but cry too. My only weakness, the one thing i wanna go back and change things over if I were given the chance.
That's why my only fear in this life is to be loved and left behind by that person. (father,mother,bf,whoever)
That's why today, my relatives can't tell me what to do
evne my parents. Coz they are guilty.
I have a free life.
And i really wanna get away and just get lost.
Buy a ticket and go somewhere
where i can never think back about my sad life again!!!
evne my parents. Coz they are guilty.
I have a free life.
And i really wanna get away and just get lost.
Buy a ticket and go somewhere
where i can never think back about my sad life again!!!
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