A New Day Has Come

my day is finally over.
today was a quite freaky and different.
i woke up with less heartache.
i survived the day smoothly.
things iv'e been doing was:

1. Cut & styled my 3 cousins hair.
(and turns out to be nice)
2. i Styled my own hair too
3. i went to the mall and bought something
and eat at MCDO
4. i never lie in bed the whole day
(which is what ive been doing lately)

then my cousin asked me:
"what's gotten into you?"
i replied:
"WELL,THIS IS ME...
IVE COME TO LOOK FOR MYSELF
AND NOW I HAVE IT BACK :)"

....but
but at the end of the day,
i noe before i sleep
i know once i closed my eyes,
i can still think of him
and everything about us :(
i know it wont be that easy.
I'M JUST PRETENDING TO BE HAPPY.
PRETENDING TO BE COOL
AND STRONG.



I'm still hoping that someday
it would still be us.
and OMG writing this sentence now
is making my heart cry once again :,(

hai,i still love you :(
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I wish I had the guts
to walk away from what we had.
But I can't...
Because I know you wouldn't come after me
and that's what hurts the most.

goodnight.